Seeking wisdom

Mother has been reformulated. It now tastes like many energy drinks do - It tastes a lot like Red Bull. Annoyingly though, it now comes in a giant 500ml can.

 

I guess they realised how much the taste of the old one sucked. I wonder, did they taste test it before putting it to market? It seems they've done so for the new one.

The Rudd government is going to means test the baby bonus. What is he thinking! The whole point of the baby bonus is to increase the population, not as welfare for those who would have difficulty affording a child! If anything that will encourage those who shouldn't be having kids to have kids even more, and discourage the well-off from having more kids.

 

I would like to see the baby bonus given to those who can show they would make good parents. They would have to sit a general knowledge test for things they should know if they are going to have kids, they should have to undergo a physical exam, and have their home checked out. If they pass all three then they can have the bonus. This should preferably be done when they are thinking of having a kid, or in the early stages of pregnancy.

 

The last thing we need is a teenage drug addict living in an abusive household getting an incentive to have a child.

My flatmate has trashed my room. I am so pissed off at him for doing that. I mean, WTF was he thinking! I had to go to work, I couldn't stick around to help clean up the kitchen, I said I would do it when I got home, but when I got home the kitchen was pretty much cleaned, but my room was trashed. He even got the bin from the kitchen and dumped it in my room! The phone is broken now as well. I haven't properly started to clean up my room yet, I needed to vent first.

 

If he gets home anytime soon he is going to cop an earful!

 

He really, really needs to get some more self-control.

Today, I have no idea why (I've become impulsive!) I ordered a meatosaurus pizza with triple cheese base. I ordered it online. Ordering food online is cool and futuristic.

I totally regret it. But this is good. I needed to regret something enough to put me off doing similar things in the future.

 

The triple cheese base was disgusting. I even predicted it would be disgusting, but I still ordered it. It is enough to put me off buying pizza indefinitely. Anyway, now that I've wasted so much of my food budget I'm going to really have to scrimp for the rest of the week. It will force me to not buy out.

 

I feel guilty and regretful. So much. So much.

 

Damn convenience! When I used to be unemployed and live far from things, I really had to consider if I wanted it or not. I had to think about it, because of the difficulty and/or lack of money. These days, while my costs are not more than my income, my savings aren't really increasing. I used to think I was disciplined and good with money, but I'm not anymore. These days I'm an impulse buyer.

 

Today I bought some face milk. I wanted moisturising sunscreen because I noticed how noticeable my wrinkles are. I thought it was moisturising sunscreen, it said SPF30+ but I'm not so sure. Anyway, I'll use it and see if I improve. Argh.

 

Right now I'm feeling fat and ugly. Serves me right for eating a yucky pizza.

Today, I have no idea why (I've become impulsive!) I ordered a meatosaurus pizza with triple cheese base. I ordered it online. Ordering food online is cool and futuristic.

I totally regret it. But this is good. I needed to regret something enough to put me off doing similar things in the future.

 

The triple cheese base was disgusting. I even predicted it would be disgusting, but I still ordered it. It is enough to put me off buying pizza indefinitely. Anyway, now that I've wasted so much of my food budget I'm going to really have to scrimp for the rest of the week. It will force me to not buy out.

 

I feel guilty and regretful. So much. So much.

 

Damn convenience! When I used to be unemployed and live far from things, I really had to consider if I wanted it or not. I had to think about it, because of the difficulty and/or lack of money. These days, while my costs are not more than my income, my savings aren't really increasing. I used to think I was disciplined and good with money, but I'm not anymore. These days I'm an impulse buyer.

 

Today I bought some face milk. I wanted moisturising sunscreen because I noticed how noticeable my wrinkles are. I thought it was moisturising sunscreen, it said SPF30+ but I'm not so sure. Anyway, I'll use it and see if I improve. Argh.

 

Right now I'm feeling fat and ugly. Serves me right for eating a yucky pizza.

I am totally addicted to sugar and fat. I need to work on improving my willpower. I need to improve my self-control. I used to have good self-control when I was younger, where did it go? I think it gradually faded. I had the money and the ease of access to buy junk food whenever I wanted. It first started when my parents stopped making my lunch. It started with the occassional sleep in and buying lunch at school. By TAFE it had dramatically increased to sleeping in and just buying food. Then there was the time where I wasn't working or studying. I didn't eat too bad then. Then I had a job and the habits I had started came back. When I first moved out I was concerned about money and so kept a tight budget and as a result ate healthy. I realised I was saving a lot and started to loosen the tightness of my budget, staring by buying junk to take to work, then by eating out more often.

 

I need to take control of the food I'm buying. If I don't buy junk food, the amount of junk food I consume will dramatically decrease. Unfortunately I'm addicted. I see a vending machine at work with yummy treats in it and I think Mmm and then buy it. I do usually have a couple of seconds consideration, but the desire for that food is too great to overcome! What can I do? I've put on a massive amount of weight since leaving school.

 

I'm going to try and have more willpower.

My new position in an inbound role is alright. A bit daunting at first, but it's getting to be ok. My collegues are really friendly in this group. I'm getting along much better.